Tuesday, February 03, 2015

Living With Anxiety: The Badge Reader and Other Minor Mishaps

 

 
Doesn't matter if I know my work is stellar, and my numbers are right.  Doesn't matter what I know rationally. Anxiety doesn't care.  If the badge reader doesn't light up green, I must have done something wrong that I don't know about or didn't realize and now I'm fired.
 
Sure, the feeling of relief when it just turns out the reader was on the blink or I didn't wait long enough until after the last person badged in or whatever is GREAT.
 
But the despair and terror leading up to that does not make the relief worth it. No, not at all.